Rating: 4 Bookworms
When reclusive novelist Senna Richards wakes up on her thirty-third birthday, everything has changed. Caged behind an electrical fence, locked in a house in the middle of the snow, Senna is left to decode the clues to find out why she was taken. If she wants her freedom, she has to take a close look at her past. But, her past has a heartbeat… and her kidnapper is nowhere to be found. With her survival hanging by a thread, Senna soon realizes this is a game. A dangerous one. Only the truth can set her free.
This book is not what I expected at all and that’s why I love it. I picked this up after finishing F*ck Love, another book by Tarryn (the first I had ever read), and I was shocked when I started reading because they are nothing alike. If it weren’t for the same heart and passion behind the writing I would say that it was written by a completely different author. I’m so used to authors writing the same cookie cutter books in which they just change the name of the character and voila a new book. Reading this was like a breath of fresh air. Not something I would normally pick up but I was hooked from the first page. I just had to know who her captor was and why she was in there and how she got there. This book takes you on a journey to discovery and you’ll happily go along for the ride.
“What’s the difference?” I asked him. “Between the love of your life, and your soulmate?”
“One is a choice, and one is not.”
Senna is one of the most complex characters I’ve ever come across. She seems to merely exist, living day to day with no clear purpose. Because of everything she has been through she decides that not feeling at all is better than feeling too much, and when you find out everything she has been through you won’t blame her. There are times while she’s captured that she feels like giving up, at points she does give up, and if it wasn’t for Isaac she may not have made it out at all. In a way being captured helped heal her and made her realize certain things about herself that she never would have if she hadn’t been captured. I found myself rooting for Senna and even though this book doesn’t necessarily have an HEA I was satisfied with the ending.
“You’ve been silent your whole life. You were silent when we met, silent when you suffered. Silent when life kept hitting you. I was like that too, a little. But not like you. You are a stillness. And I tried to move you. It didn’t work. But that doesn’t mean you didn’t move me. I heard everything you didn’t say. I heard it so loudly that I couldn’t shut it off. Your silence, Senna, I hear it so loudly.”
Isaac found Senna when she was at her lowest and then refused to leave. He was there for her when literally no one else was, sacrificing his own social life and relationships in order to tend to her, and he was happy to do it. He made Senna feel safe even though he was a complete stranger, which was quite a feat at the time given the circumstances. He’s absolutely selfless and, even if she doesn’t realize it, is exactly what Senna needs. He stands with Senna through some of the darkest moments of her life even though she keeps trying to push him away.
I think everyone would like to have an Isaac in their life: someone who won’t leave no matter how tough it gets. Isaac doesn’t go through the same transformation that Senna does throughout the book. He’s actually the only constant in the book and in Senna’s life. But it was inspiring seeing him stick by her side through thick and thin, his soulmate to the very end.
“He kissed me with color, with drumbeat, and a surgeon’s precision. He kissed me with who he was, the sum of his life—and it was all encompassing. I wondered what I kissed him with since I was only broken parts.”
I would say that the only thing that somewhat bothered me about this book was the big reveal of who the captor was. I was left feeling like “Really? That’s who it was?” I was expecting like a huge bombshell and instead it sort of fell flat for me. However, all of the other elements of the book wayyy make up for it.
About the Author
New York Times & USA Today bestselling author Tarryn Fisher is cooler than you, but not one to rub it in your face. She graduated first in her class at Hogwarts school of Witchcraft and Wizardry. She is a lover of human nature, and a real life villain (House of Slytherin). Her heart is dark, but she loves you with it anyway. Currently she lives in Washington with her son and daughter, and just finished her eighth novel, F*ck Love, which is now available.